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On Top of the World

 

"On Top of the World" is a commentary on the dystopian Zeitgeist of our times. The character is living in a world where feelings, subtle energies and the pure longing for connection are not only invisible, but shunned in favor of inflexible and corrupt ideas of power, where true contact, sincere expression, and vulnerability are seen as weakness.

Nevertheless, it is filled with hope, love and beauty. Amidst her struggle for significance and perfection, the character undergoes a journey of  RE-MEMBERING her value and values, transcending the limiting world view in which she resides, and BECOMING THE WORLD. No longer trying to find her place in it.

The album is eclectic/alternative, with a nod at Latin rhythms and styles, including Bossa Nova, Flamenco and Tango; elements of Trip Hop; and Musical Theater too. 

Piano and vocals-Genevera. Produced by Genevera. Mastered by Charles Aquisto.  Song lyrics and credits below.

On the Inside

Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Vocals and Piano - Genevera

Recorded by Genevera

What is Strength?

Can you meet me on the inside?

Can you meet me on the inside?

Can you meet me there?

 

Met a guy

I like what he’s got on the inside

He likes what I’ve got on the outside.

Can I meet him there?

 

I’ve tried

to reach his heartbeat on the inside

But I can’t get in on the inside

Access denied

 

What’s it take?

To reach a heartbeat on the inside

I found his sweet spot on the outside

That’s the easy side.

 

What is strength?

Can I meet it on the inside?

When the night has fallen outside

And everyone’s in bed

 

Meditate

And I’m crawling out my insides

To get back out on the outside

Among the living dead 

 

Can’t satiate

Attachment grasping for the outside

Wanting what I want and wanting

 Something I cannot get

 

What is strength?

Can I meet it on the inside?

When my tears are falling outside

And everything’s been said

 

Get your head straight

Obsession pressing me from both sides

Infiltrating like a landslide

And I can’t hide

 

What is strength?

Can I meet it on the inside?

Can I meet it on the inside

Can I meet me there?

Living

Lyrics and Music by Genevera
Vocals, Piano and Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Recorded by Gus Skinas at Animal Lane, Lyons, CO

Butterfly Petrified

What have we done to the Living?

Sometimes I sit and cry watching the deeds of Humanity

Insanity

 

Sitting in a cubicle, a cubicle for a living

Trading Identity, Identity for belonging

 

Butterfly, I’m so high

I can see clear past the meadow

Through the window and so can you

so I wonder why

I close my heart on a whim

from feeling

 

I'm sitting in a cubicle, a cubicle for a living

Trading identity, the best parts of me for belonging

What do you invest in; this wasteland or this heaven?

Which one are you living in and is it your invention?

 

But, oh my Brothers

Oh, my Lover

What have we done?

 

Butterfly Petrified, what have we done to your wings?

Humans!

Sometimes, I’m horrified

Watching the deeds of Humanity

Including me

 

Sitting in a sermon, laughing AMEN

trying to hide in my crying isolation

 

But, oh my Brothers

My own Mother

What have we done?

What have we done?

Feel

FeelGenevera
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Lyrics and Music by Genevera
Piano, Vocals and Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Recorded by Gus Skinas at Animal Lane, Lyons, Colorado

Can you feel

What is real?

What is here

Oh, can you feel?

 

Can you see?

Beyond your dream

Beyond me

Through your fantasy?

 

Cause I can see

Into the distance,

through your distance

all you dismiss 

Do you want me to leave?

Oh, can’t you see

what you mean to me?

 

Can you feel I’m reaching out to you?

Can we heal what’s dividing us in two?

Do you fear the light that hides in you

Is dying to get through?

 

Do you breathe?

Do you bleed?

Do you still want to?

Well, I still want you

 

And I can see through your distance

All you dismiss with indifference

All I’m risking when you’re not listening

Oh, can’t you see

what you’re doing to me

Cause, I still breathe

I still bleed

Do you still want to

Well I still want you to

 

And I can see

right through your distance

All you dismiss with disinterest

All I’m risking when you don’t let me in

Oh, can’t you see what you’re doing to me

Can you feel I’m reaching out to you?

Can we heal what’s dividing us in two?

Do you fear the light that hides in you

Is dying to get through?

 

Can you feel me?

Oh, can you hear me?

Can you be real with me?

Do you still love me, baby?

 

Can you feel me?

Oh can you hear me?

Why do you treat me with so much apathy?

Can you deal with a feeling?

Can you let your heart open?

so you can feel

my love is real

my love is right here

my love is clear

 

But what can I do?

Feel it for you?

If you can't feel....

A Woman's Hips
 

Lyrics and Music by Genevera
Piano, Vocals and Virtual Strings - Genevera

Castanets - Alexis Dudley

Recorded by Gus Skinas at Animal Lane, Lyons, CO

A Woman’s Hips, they hold

Mythology untold

Legs crossed so polite

But open them up

To invoke the night

 

Oh, tension held within

Desire’s calling him

Hips contracted all day

 

Halting her natural, feminine sway

Lips holding back what she’s longing to say

As the man she desires is looking away

The man she desires is playing a game

 

Her hips speak volumes though she contracts them

Her eyes hold passion, though he deflects them

 

Heart broke so polite

So befalls the night

With hips feeling tight

A Woman’s Hips, they hold

A longing untold

 

They’re contracted all day

Halting her natural feminine sway

Lips holding back what she’s longing to say

As the man she desires is walking away

The man she desires is playing a game.

 

Away he goes

A sway she still knows

So let him go

And let woman’s heart be whole

Ideas I Manifest

Ideas I ManifestGenevera
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Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Vocals and Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Ideas I manifest

To the best of my ability

Love is dangerous

I knew it was

I do it cause

Identity

 

Here we go another test

I should have guessed

But then I guess

I started this

 

Silences I manifest

By arrest of my ability

Talk is dangerous

I knew it was

Esophagus

Clear quietly

 

I’ve not been back

To the west

Per the prince

Who had invited me

 

Your power is dangerous

I knew it was

Corruption demands loyalty

 

Ideas I manifest

By the gland of my pituitary

Love is dangerous

I knew it was

I do it cause

Identity

 

Your medicine

is poison

Something Machiavellian

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Goodbye, TangoGenevera
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Goodbye, Tango

Lyrics and Music by Genevera
Vocals, Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Upright Bass - Eric Wiggs
Cello - Robert Stahly

 Recorded by Eric Wiggs and Genevera

Dutifully beatific

Obsessively prolific

Remorseful, in an instant

Of consequence

 

My extended pause evokes his suspicion

Knowing I’d die to confide in him

He never listens

This preoccupied Tango

For whom I clumsily adjust my positions

 

Emotions rehearsed in crafting a stillness

A palette made languid for applause

Clash of cultures remains

Moons waxes and wanes

While each step I take for him declaws

 

Awaiting, reserving, curving and shaping

Each dream that’s a little closer to waking

Just then he glides toward me

Too late; I’ve mistaken, sanctioned

Kicked at, embargoed, forsaken

Passion

To avoid losing my concentration

 

He barely sings and when he does

His lyrics leak venom

Paralyzing the dancer

I once was

 

You must move them all to tears he tells me

He says I’m a song with no melody

His eyes go grey and then he sighs

It’s just another day without lullabies

Just another day

Just getting by

Just getting by

 

And now the clouds are hollowed through

And now the hounds are howling anew

And now, Amor, I can barely hear you

 

He steps off the floor

Arms crossed in the door and advises me

If routine takes one more step around here

I’ll be on the next flight back to her

So, I try again more carefully

My eggshell posture keeps beats

That march on me

 

Night falls again

And so do I

Tripping myself in Tango’s glue

The moon disappears deep into the sky

I wonder if there’s any way I can go too

 

Here, studying the hard floor

Still and muted I lie

My Tango, I cry

But no answer

Goodbye

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Mad King

Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Piano, Vocals and Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Recorded by Gus Skinas at Animal Lane, Lyons, CO

Don’t Have the Eyes

To see past my mind

                To see a new kind of reality blind             

 

Don’t have the will to feel how I feel

In a moment so still

I don’t have the will

 

America, the Beautiful

Had another oil spill

In the Susquehanna

 

So drill, baby drill

From Capitol Hill

You’re a good old boy now

You made daddy proud

 

You don’t have the eyes

To halt the next pipeline

Which threatens the lifeline

Of endangered time

 

You don’t have the eyes to see what’s happening

Just have the temperament of a Mad King

You’d never even be our president

If you were a woman

Cause that much ambition

Is suspicious in women

But this much corruption is sane

For a Mad King

You don’t have the wisdom

To serve this kingdom

Practicing nepotism

gushing narcissism

You ran as a Manchurian con man

Whose only mandate is being a man

Grab as much with both hands as you can

While being a blue collar champion

You showed them

Baby you showed them

What a ham! Baby, what a scam!

       

Your God granted you dominion

over ever living thing

Per your supreme religion

culture, nation, education

So bomb, baby bomb

The shit outta them

In the origin

of civilization

 

You don’t have the wisdom

To make decisions

Perpetrated on victims

Of your ignorance

 

 You don’t have the vision to see anything

Just have the impulse of entitlement

The bar is as low as it has ever been

Electing an unqualified citizen

A Mad King, are you listening?

A Mad King, babe we’re resisting

 

America, the Beautiful

Had another massacre

In another school

 

So shill, baby shill

You won the election

Here is a pill

To maintain your erection

 

You don’t have the courage

To halt the next gunman

which threatens the funding

Of your next campaign

 

Are you human or are you machine?

What a toxic form of masculine

The whole world now hangs upon a string

Depending on which way your mood might swing

a Mad King

Are you listening?

A Mad King

Babe, we’re resisting

 

America, the Beautiful...

All Is Well

Lyrics and Music by Corin Blanchard
Vocals and Piano - Genevera

Guitar - Eric Wiggs

Recorded by Gus Skinas at Animal Lane, Lyons, CO

Angels, Allies, Guides and Friends

Surround me in your arms

Come in close, hold me tight

Protect me from all harm

Especially from those wielding armor

And those who are gifted as charmers

Let me own my own darkness

and not get sucked in

Because All is Well

Is it Heaven or Hell?

Even when I can't tell

Baby, All is Well

All is Well

Water, Earth, Fire and Air

Connectors to Ancestors

Build my altar, Say a prayer

The Healing time endures

Wherever there is hatred, Transform it

Wherever there is beauty, Adorn it

Wherever there are miracles, perform them with me

Just knowing All is Well

Is it Heaven or Hell

Even when I can't tell

Baby, All is Well

 

All is Well

Can't you tell?

Shadow Scene

Lyrics and Music by Corin Blanchard
Piano and Vocals - Genevera
Recorded by Genevera

I've always been fearful of Darkness and Shadow

Scared what resides there, I'd always cower

or shove it away and pretend that it wasn't real

Drawn and repulsed by its awesome power

So, I kept it around and cloaked it in shame

Like we all do with parts that feel dirty or lame

Til I looked in the mirror and saw looking back

Only half of myself and my energy slack

The Underworld called me in Whispers and Screams

that I soon understood were coming from me

from the deep pain of forceable separating

And so the descent became necessary

Embracing the mess

I took the first steps

Unwinding the layers of Finery and Lace

Til I got to the layers of Grime and of Mire

With some age - old bandages somehow in place

This ain't gonna be beautiful

Sure as hell won't feel fair

Fighting impulse and instinct to flee or to swing

And instead, I make myself sit right there

Cause I can't hold on anymore

Couldn't even if I tried

No, I can't hold down anymore

The lid to the box of my Shadow Side

Our wounding starts early

Going back generations

The shame and the fear and denial and rage

A grief that seems endless

A sadness profound and that sinking feeling

You're stuck in a cage

Til something cracks

And a sliver of light

Starts you thinking that maybe it's not destiny

But that maybe, just maybe it's of your own making

And maybe, just maybe you could become free

What's the part that's so beautiful?

All I know is it hurts

Spinning stories I carry from Goddess knows where

that say, "No, looking at it will just make it worse."

So, I try to hold on a bit more.

My fingers ached from the grip

What the hell, what's the cost if I open that door?

I can't seem to help it, so I let it slip

There's a trick to seeing in the dark they say

and it's nothing to do with your sight

Go find the stillness, the void of within

At the center is burning your own divine light

Here's the beauty

You get to choose where it shines

And if it casts beams of Shadow or Light

Cause the Goddess is you

She's one and the same

Her face is your face

And she goes by your name

Can't believe I'm this beautiful.

And in the shadow, I dance

If someone should see me, they'll judge as they will

But now, I'm not scared to take that chance

So, I don't hold back anymore

Living my truth, instead of my lies

No, I won't hold my breath anymore

Let the world hear my songs and my yells and my cries

Look at me, I'm so beautiful

I want to be seen

I want to be free

Look at me, I'm so beautiful

Look at me and please, see me!

Glistening Feminine

Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Vocals, Piano and Virtual Instruments - Genevera

Recorded by Genevera

Will you take me to the river?

I know that you’re a giver 

I want you to adore me 

I want you to explore me 

 

with another tender kiss 

Awaken my holiness 

I will be the goddess 

Upon which Life subsists  

 

I am the Abyss 

Where all Life begins 

Out of my Bliss 

Emerges  

 

Glistening Feminine 

I am the Medicine of Men

Glisten in my Feminine 

And you will want for nothing

Sentient Species

Nourishing

Proliferating

Flourishing

 

But as centuries deliver,

so a drought has dried my river,

filled my oceans with plastics 

and petrochemicals 

 

With another round of floods,

awaken your consciousness

Have mercy on this body

upon which Life Destructs  

 

I am the Tellus of the Sapiens 

There has been a shift in our Relationship 

 

You discovered that my elements  

Could be used to keep you warm,

mined my veins to fuel your countless nuclear atomic bombs 

now your pillaging has gone beyond the pale 

I’m withering from your betrayal 

 

Now, it's time to heal the river

Yes, my Power will Restore Her

I will be the goddess upon which Life balances 

I am the Matrix, where your children live 

There has been a glitch

In your heart's development

 

 

My health is their inheritance, offered forth on borrowed lands

I dream that the Water and the Earth will shine in brilliance 

Exploring and exploiting are much different things 

Are you listening? 

Infusion

Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Piano and Vocals - Genevera

Recorded by Genevera

Sitting in a mineral spring

on a December evening

Daydreaming

Reminiscing

 

A miracle happened when I had my back turned

To the painting of Magdalene

In Lisbon

A Coronation 

 

 Minerals bringing

My muscles relaxing

Infusion into my skin

On a moonlit mountain

 

Cellular memory orbits my bloodstream

Divine Feminine Frequency

Been awaiting

Your Resurrection

 

When Jupiter/Saturn conjunct in a pattern

Like they did when Galilee lived

Send for me

Mercury

 

Breathe cause Breath’s a

Sacred Essence

Sparking your Incandescence  

Your Palatial Presence

 

 May the crows feast upon our melancholy

Like a Schubert melody

La da da dee

Ravage me

Sweetly

On Top of the World

Lyrics and Music by Genevera

Vocals, Piano and VR - Genevera

Recorded by Genevera

On Top of the WorldGenevera
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I'm on top of the World and it's sinking

And I haven't the time for this kind of thinking

They're in a dark wood, in a dark wood

Right where Dante stood, in a dark wood

They've done what they could, in a dark wood

Right where Dante stood, in a dark wood

When you awaken you'll discover

How much you love her

Oh, how you love her!

She will be waiting for you under

the moonlight above her

She'll wait for her Lover

Sleep now

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